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Confused?
Read again:
Girls make better boyfriends than guys themselves.

Recently, a friend of mine commented that she'd make a great boyfriend.
After thinking for a while, I have to say I agree with her.

Wanna know why I say so?

It's because, as girls, we have many moods and attitudes.
Guys can't really understand us and all our eccentricities.
They don't know how to treat us exactly right as well as when and what to do at every situation.
That's because guys' minds are way simpler than ours.
To them, everything should be straightforward and they don't understand why girls have to be so secretive and confusing.
Girls, on the other hand, love drama.
They love it if a guy fawns on them and pampers them, because they'll feel cared for and important.
Which is why we do so many 'weird' stuff around guys that we like.
It's 'coz we want ATTENTION!

Ever read that email or Friendster bulletin 'bout the perfect guy/boyfriend?
No?
(==.)
Where've you been, Mars?
Well, read on.

·´`·.¸.»The Perfect Boyfriend·´`·.¸.»

1. Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls 'coz she'll feel left out.
2. Hold her hand at any moment; even if its just for a second.
3. Hug her from behind.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Wrestle with her and tickle her.
6. Don't hang out with you ex when she's not with you, it hurts her.
7. If you're talking to other girls, when you're done, walk over and hug/kiss her; let her know she's yours and they aren't.
8. Write her sweet love notes or call her just to say "Hi".
9. Introduce her to your friends - as your girlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up.
12. Protect her if another guy messes around with her and she doesn't like it.
13. Make her laugh - if you can make her laugh, you can make her do anything.
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
16. If you care about her, then tell her.
17. Every guy should give his girl 3 things:

• A big, huggable soft toy (She'll hug it every time she goes to sleep)
• Jewelry (She'll treasure it forever)
• One of your t-shirts (She'll most likely wear it to bed)

18. Treat her the same all the time - even if it's just the two of you or when you're with your friends.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
20. Hang out with her on weekends.
21. Kiss her in the rain.
22. Kiss her just for the heck of it.
23. If you're listening to music, let her listen too.
24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if it's simple and inexpensive, it came from you. it means all the world to her. It's the thought that counts.
25. When she gives you a present, take it and tell her you love it and will keep it forever.
26. Always call her when you say you will, because it hurts her and makes her think you don't care if you don't keep your promises, so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don't necessarily have to have hour-long conversations every time but it's nice for us to hear your voice - even if it's just for a quick hello.
27. Give her what she wants.
28. Recognize the small things; they usually mean the most.
29. Tell her she's beautiful - not 'Hot', not 'Sexy'; 'Beautiful'.
30. Hang out with her whenever you're free.
31. If u care about her, show her!

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The school bell rings - it's the end of school for the day.
A guy and a girl walks out of the school compound.
While walking, he offers to carry her bag and stuff for her, but she refuses.
They walk together to the guy's motorbike and get on.
The girl sits in front, he's behind her.
He's driving; his hands are wrapped around her.
That's how they leave the school, driving off to goodness-knows-where.



This was a scene I just watched at school just now.
I'm not really in the mood to make it sound like a beautiful event with all sorts of flowery words, but just imagine it and you'll get the idea.
I just thought that the guy is so sweet.
However, when I mentioned that to some friends, they had a lot of comments about it...
"It's so dangerous!"
"Why you call everything sweet de?"
"Ha, like that also sweet ar??"
Lolz~
To me it's sweet, as well as a lot of other simple things too.
I don't know, probably it's just me.
Haha~

Anyway, exams are all over (Finally!) and the semester break is gonna start soon.
Wee!
First thing during sem. break would be BNTS at Air Tawar.
Go there as kelefeh only...
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Diarrhea + Gastric = Agony
For the past two days, that's what I've been facing.
T_T

So exhausted...
Need rest!
Holiday holiday come come!

Ever had someone whom you treasured and looked up to?
Someone who, in your eyes, was the image of perfection?
Someone whom you maybe even loved...?

Imagine that same person betraying you.
That same person you held dear to your heart, breaking promises and denying your trust.
Lying, cheating;
Putting you down.

What would you feel like?
Think about it, seriously.
Because it might happen someday; be prepared for anything.

As for me, well, I lost all my respect for that person.
Someone who's insulted me and put me down unreasonably does not deserve my respect.
Or even my friendship, for that matter.
Simply because that person has no right to insult me.
Neither does he have any right to dictate my life or anything that I do.

Everyone's entitled to their own opinions; it's a free country here.
But so what if you have your own ways and I've mine?
Doesn't make you totally right and me, nothing but wrong.

I really cannot face this person anymore.
It's a chore to have to meet him almost every day; but I'll just have to act like he isn't even there.
If only I could cut him out of my life...

Haiz~
I really regret knowing this person.

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Cute clipart of the day...
^^

Oh yeah, and bro?
Get well soon, k?
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It's the weekend.
Finally.
After this, only two more days of exams left until it's all over.
Woots!

Hehe~
After exams, Mr. Ki-A-Osh Tan owes me a trip to McD.

Anyway.
Monday I've got Accounts and Physics.
I'm so dead.
X_x



It's been about a week since we broke up.
Is it right to still miss a guy whom I, with all the common sense I've got, know never treated me right?
Ignored all the time and stuff like that...
Neglected.
Yeah.
And I really hate myself for still thinking of him sometimes.
*Sigh*
I'm an idiot.

So I turn to stuff that occupies my mind.
To keep myself from thinking of the past, you see.
Just in case anyone's wondering why I've suddenly become so studious.
I've not.
I'm just...
Escaping reality.

I am so totally loving this song right now.
Just 'coz it's evoking 'feelings'.
But anyway, it's the best thing I could find to describe my emotions.
It's sung by one of my favourite artistes, Zhang Dong Liang.
So what I care he looks... Gay?
I <3 his songs!



The translations and pinyin done by me.
Took a lot of time, man!
Time that should be spent studying...
But what the heck.
Haha~

The (?) means that I'm not sure 'bout the translations.
My Chinese does suck after all.
I just did my best.
Feels really fulfilling.
^^

So sorry I can't put a video or MP3 here...
For some weird reason, YouTube won't let me access it's webby.
Ughh~
But anyway, go to my SkyDrive and download it from there, if you want.
Click Me (My Windows Live SkyDrive)

Anyway wanna go catch some Zzz's now.
It's like 12:29AM, man.
=P
Nitey nite.

Been studying for the past two weeks for the mid-year exams.
Tired man.
Yet, I've still a long way to go before I finish studying all the necessary stuff.
I wonder how Science1 students do it all the time.
It's killing me~!
Anyway, it's not like I've a choice...
Wanna get good results so that I've a better chance to get my motor license in July.
That's my ultimate dream; I've wanted it for soooo long.
When I finally get it...



Oh, yeah, we broke up, by the way.
After a really long time of arguing and misunderstandings, it's finally over.
Still hurts sometimes when I think about it, but I guess that it's for the best.
And now that I've lost him, I finally appreciate him for who he is and for what he's done in my life.
I guess some things are just taken for granted.
When you lose them, that's when you will realise the cavity they leave in your life.

Anyway, we're still friends.
Really close, just not together anymore.
But whatever happens, he'll always be a part of my life and hold a special place in my heart.

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So who is my that 'one person'?



给我心里的人：

你知道吗？ 跟你在一起的日子越来越辛苦。
为了你，我得浪费了很多力气；
滴了很多泪水。

你知道吗？ 我好累哦…
一直很想要放弃。
我的心里已经是有太多个伤口了。

我现在也不懂该真么做才好…

我一直在想起我们以前的生活；
我们一起快快乐乐的过每一天的日子那时候。
每天脸上都有笑容；
每天都能听到你的声音，对我说甜甜蜜蜜的话；
每天都有你在我身边，支持我，陪伴我。

我还记得你温暖的拥抱，
你头发的香味，
你自拍时做的可爱pose，
你牵着我的手的感觉。

我…
好想回到我们幸福的时光。

我…
不要再为了这件事而一直在烦恼。

我…
不要一直都再和你吵架。

我…
希望你能听到我心里所说的话。

对我，你一直以来都会很特别。
我知道我好傻，可是我没办法忘记
我爱你。

About stuff.
Lots of stuff.
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Should I let go?
Or put it on hold?
If we're really meant to be, then the future's already written out for us, right?
If it's God's will for us to be together then we will be, eventually, right?
Hmm...

MYF meeting yesterday (I was late... =P) Aunty Pauline and Aunty Siew Lean talk 'bout BGR (Boy-Girl Relationship) stuff.
Premarital sex, how far a relationship should go, whether or not we should be having relationships at this age in the first place, and all that kind of stuff...
And honestly, I've to say that it really put me into perspective.

I was left thinking deeply 'bout my relationship since then.

And, yeah, I agree that if neither party is mature enough, then it's not gonna be a good relationship 'coz we'll just be feeding off each others' emotions and 'sense' of safety.
If I myself am broken, then of course it makes sense to sort out my own life first before letting anyone else into it.

Ya, I am willing to admit that, when I started this relationship, I didn't really think much about it.
I was immature and not ready for commitment.
All I was doing was looking for fun and a shoulder to cry on as well as an SMS buddy.
Because my relationship with my parents is not strong, or even close, so I looked for a replacement.
Someone to give me a sense of belonging, of being loved and cared for, and who truly understood me.

That was when I jumped aboard the BGR vessel, which seems so long ago now.

I don't know how much has changed.
However, my expectations and the things I want from this relationship have not.
On the contrary, they've deepened for my own selfish reasons.

At the beginning, everything was sweet and rosy, like a dream come true.
Well, that ship has long sailed.
Now I'm left to deal with the 'ocean' with only a life jacket and a limited supply of provisions and sources.

I've realized, the point is that, in a real relationship, each side has to give some and take some.
We can't just give and give and give, or take and take and take.
Both people have to want the best for the other person, and everything each one does is selfless.

And we also have to understand that, no matter how big a part we are of the other person's life, we are still just ONE PART.
Their lives don't just revolve around pleasing us and working on the relationship.
They need to have their own friends, their own personal time, their own privacy.

He needs to have his own friends, his own personal time and his own privacy.

So I don't know if I'm ready to continue on with this.
Or if I can handle it.
I really don't think I'm mature enough, just yet.
But the first thing I'm gonna start doing is changing myself and my own character/attitude.
I wanna change the hot-tempered devil in me (HAHA).
I've enough of acting like someone I'm really not and appear like someone else, someone I don't recognize when I look at myself.
Maybe it's time to take off the mask, put away the script, and live life.
Who knows?
Maybe the play's just started for me.

I made a huge mistake today...
HUGE.
And I'll need to right things A.S.A.P.,
Also known as TONIGHT.

Yeah, we'll talk.
Later; tonight.
We need to talk.
Okay?
I'll wait...

Meanwhile, I'll stay optimistic.
And, yeah, whatever happens,
Never forget that,
No matter what,
No matter where,
No matter how,
No matter why,
We'll always be a part of each others' lives.

Frankly, I'm disappointed with you.
After all this time, all this while, you're still like that.
And getting worse, actually.
What the hell.



Another weekend...
Labour Day today.
Boring~!
Early early morning need go Add Maths liao, plus forget to do homework.
Haiz~
Monday can get ready get scold by Mrs. Tan.
Wee~
And then afternoon got meeting at church.
Den go makan.
Hehe~



Anyway now so sien...



Today's mood is: Moody a.k.a emo-ing.
Uggh.