i want my world to be colourful...

this awesomeness is by [rin] , Friday, June 4, 2010 4:41 PM

WARNING
Emo post alert!

I am sick and tired of being a slave to my emotions.
I am sick and tired of always being in the dark 'bout stuff.
I am sick and tired of the 'being used' feeling.
And I am sick and tired of watching the whole world pass by before my eyes.

Every time, every single time, you show up when I least expect it.
When I am trying my hardest to move on, you just come back and mess it all up again.
Just when I think I am able to forget, I can't because there you are, reminding me.
Your timing is fantastic, I give that to you.

So, okay.
I accepted that maybe our fates were meant to be intertwined.
But just as I prepare myself to face you, you walk off.
Just as I am coming to terms with the fact that you're there, you're suddenly not anymore.
I couldn't believe how one day out changed everything, but that's a fact and it did.
Now here I am again, left to clutch at straw ends with a heart that has a reopened wound.

I am an artist.
I was meant to see the world in a million shades of colours.
But the first time you left, you stripped my life of everything.
No colours, no feelings; nothing was left.
You left me in the cold, with nothing but black and white.

Now, I'm slowly repainting my life, making progress that differs in speed all the time.
You can have but two choices:
Either come and help me paint or get out of my way.
There's no in between; you can't just stand aside and watch me work.

Since the feelings are mutual (Or so you say), I think the next line of action is quite obvious.
But I accept, too, that there are other factors which have to be equated.
Like distances, studies, family.
But if you're not going to even want to talk it out and settle our scores, then...
I really don't know what else I can do about it.

3 Response to "i want my world to be colourful..."

ohmywtf Says:

hope ur fine. :-)

Lindy Says:

Cheer up. :) Tomorrow will be a better day.

[rin] Says:

thanks ya'll... =')

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